For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him. Philippians 1:29
My heart has been breaking these past few days for unbelievers, to be more specific those that I live with. Sometimes I'm just so confused by God's will and so unbelievably frustrated with how some people just can't seem to realize that their priorities lie in the wrong place! They don't know God's love! I want more than anything for them to know that they DO have an eternal daddy that wants a relationship with them! My heart is aching for them.
I hear them in the bathroom agonizing over one little pimple or how they have (what I wouldn't even consider noticeable) flaws and how it's "just not fair!" I want them understand that they are made in the image of Christ, beautiful because we're HIS creation, HIS bride, HIS beloved. I want them to understand that I DON'T CARE how they look! No matter what I say, they always, always, always apologize for how "gross" or "heinous" they look, I just want to shake the truth into them! Not really, I know that would be a little harsh/extreme, but after so many months of this, I'm hurting more and more for them each day. I want for there to be a heart change. I keep asking God to show me new ways that I can love them. I am constantly reminded each and every day here at college, just how utterly dependent I am on a Savior, how much I need Christ, and how no good deed comes from me, but rather HE deserves ALL the glory. Thank you sweet Jesus, my sanity.